| I'm not going to get my heart broken again.
There's a good guy out there for me, someday.
I now know what I deserve. |
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| How could you do this to me?
Why?
I hate you. |
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| I'm back for school. I'm all moved in to my new home for the next...who knows how long. Mark and I are driving back friday to Nashville to get the rest of our stuff out of the apartment. Then, I will start work at Elon Television again bright and early on Monday. I went to Marion's going away party for a little last night. I will miss her around the office, but she's having a baby and going back to school. wow. Christopher Kelly came up to Elon on Tuesday and it was so nice to see him again. I will miss him terribly. He's a great person and a wonderful friend. I'll miss our humor together. Emotionally and mentally I have grown this summer, as every summer. I've learned a lot about myself, Mark and what I want to do with my life. This year holds a lot of exciting challenges, and when I say challenges, I mean it. This will be a hard year. I will take up my fall with film projects and finishing up that major. Hopefully in the winter I will get involved with some sort of theatre on or off campus and then finish up my theatre degree in the spring. My ultimate goal is to start some sort of children's theatre project in Burlingon/Alamance County. I'm really excited about this idea, but I need to do a lot of research and write a proposal in the fall. If I put my mind to it, I know I can get it done. I'd like to hold a spring break camp for kids. I've been inspired by Julee, my boss this summer. She is an amazing woman who has taught me that you MUST have drive to succeed in this business. You have to make your own breaks. I'm up for the challenge. I'd love to go work for the Missoula Children's Theatre traveling tour for a year and then get my MFA in theatre for youth so that I could work at a theatre in their education department. I've got quite the plan for myself, but who knows what will happen or how I'll feel at the end of this year.
Mark and I are talking a lot about us. It's been a rocky summer, but I think living together opened our eyes up to many things we were overlooking about our relationship before. We learned quite a bit about our dynamic as a couple. We're, I don't want to say taking a step back, but we're reevaluating things. This process feels very healthy for us. We have and will continue to keep open communication with eachother about every issue we are facing, and the ability to do that is a blessing. We have unlimited second-chances with eachother. As long as both of us are still willing to work it out, we've got something special and not worth giving up. He has a great job that is 8-5. He works hard and is challenged and learning a lot. He works with Ryan, so that makes me so happy. He's also living with Ryan and Christina right now until he can afford to move out to his own place. I hope, for Christina's sake that won't be too long. He's also been writing a lot of music, and it's all very good. He's so talented. I just wish he was more confident in his ability. I don't know why he's not. He's been practicing with a local band and I hope they start playing gigs soon. I would love to see Mark on stage doing what he loves. I think him and ryan have been working on some worship stuff as well. I'm just so glad to see him doing music.
My summer internship was amazing. With me, it's what I make of it and the people that are there. I feel like I have been blessed to work with and meet some of the best people God has put on this earth. The teachers, professional actors, that I worked for are talented and so sweet and hilarious. The other interns are, hands down, some of my favorite people in my life. We all just bonded instantly and kept eachother laughing all summer. We will all be healthy people later in life because of this summer. I hope to travel to Chicago some time this year, hopefully with Kimberly, so we can meet up with Jessica and Kristy. Bryce is fantastic and lives in Nashville. I really do hope to spend more time in the future there. I LOVED Nashville, especially the theatre community there. Some of our inside jokes from this summer include: Under my Umberella-ella-ella-eh-eh-eh; Why you talk so crazy?; Sign of the Beaver; That's only in the morning; Do the Alex Robin; Swasti's Puppy Get's Around book; and Julee's thank you gifts from Suga's. I will never forget this summer. I made some great contacts and learned so so so much. I feel equipt to make my own way in this business. I'm going to have to work hard and there's just no way around that. Children's theatre is something I love and that one thing that I am passionate about. I've found it. My film knowledge also came in handy this summer too, so I know that I'm still doing the right thing. It's good to be well rounded, but also have something specific to focus on. I still have a lot to learn and experience, but I've got some confidence that I'll know it all when it needs to be known.
Today I am going to finish up my internship portfolio, hopefully, so that I can get that off my back when classes start. I'll get my kitten back on Mondy too. Teenie is sttaying with Mark's brother's family right now, but I'll keep her in my room until I find a better home for her, with me or not. My first real pet actually. I'm so attached to her. Alright, well I better get to work and eat something. I'm trying to save money, but I should still probably eat. I can't wait till meal plans start. |
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| I've always had a lot of diverse friends. I've more importantly, always had that tight knit crew of people that I can't even express how much they mean to me - I can always count on them, no matter what - they'll always bring a smile to my face - I can't live without them. Thank you to those people. That group is growing as my life continues and I feel so blessed. I hope I can bring as much joy and blessing to all of your lives as you bring to mine.
Happy Spring Break Elon. Be Safe. I'm going home. "Home is where the heart is." -my heart's in Nashville...and Pennsylvania...and North Carolina...and New York...and Costa Rica.
Thank you Lord.
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| I don't want to be here...I want to be with my baby in Nashville...I'm sad yet in love
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